Well sometime I think after all that time TTC we forget what its like to be normal iykwim its like we are so used to the dissapointment of another AF that when we do get PG we dont know how to be happy you keep say this isnt happening to me. I cant really be having a baby. so we almost block it out just incase we get dissapointed again. But its ok to be happy you will get that long awaited baby soon but you are also aloud to grive for the one you lost. dont be so hard on yourself:hugs: