TTC after Miscarriage or Loss ~ February 08 #2

[Baby Angels]

Sorry you ve been feeling under the weather but happy your Doctor has confirmed everything........ You may however want to change your 'ticker' your not cycle daying anymore girl....... I m glad your waist is explaning... mine is too.... and I m the one with the BFN........LOL

I do feel sorry for whatever Dr I end up going with this time. I think he/she will have their work cut out for them. I can see me walking in and saying... right... for the first 6 weeks I want bloods every 3rd day. I want to see those HCG levels raise (my HCG didnt raise enough with my angels, that s how they new I was going to miscarry).... I will be putting my foot down big time.... Maybe I should start the first appointment with them with.... I m going to be an absolute pain in the butt.... sooo get ready for 9 months of hell......LOL

[ll80]

heh I'll be exactly the same Angel, luckily I've been seeing my doc for years so I'm comfortable enough to show her my neurotic side.
Also unless I'm as sick as a bloody dog with m/s for 6 mths I won't feel conpletely right, that's what I was like with DD and although I know every pg is different, you go by what you know don't you...

Nothing much else to report here. lots of time to think and think so, and have come to realise I am totally smitten with my DP and made all the right decisions in completely changing my life to be with him.
Time out to think has been good, spending time with the X has really confirmed why I left almost a year ago now.
Feeling really good about the direction I am heading, just need to be more patient with myself and let go. I find it really hard to be completely open with my DP, something I am really trying to work on but finding really difficult with him.
Really can't wait to TTC I'll be heading to the docs as soon as I get home to see what she thinks and probably do things right this time no "accidents", best start taking vitamins, I don't want to do anything that I would blame myself for if the next pg ends the same way IYKWIM.

Nickster glad you're feeling better, look after yourself!! Make sure you have some cake that always works!

Good Luck and Hiya to everyone, hope your travelling well.

..Laura

[Jodsan]

AF is definately on the way, pretty sure I will see her tomorrow morning. Went to the Doc about the bizarre booby symptoms and she thinks I have just developed some bad PMS. I can't complain, never had it before. Need to cut back on caffeine and get back to the gym apparently. Having a breast scan in a week or so just to make sure but she didn't seem concerned at all.

Laura - it really does take some time to move on properly from your ex, it's amazing how much they influence your life and decisionmaking and probably even the person you are at that time. I was with my ex for 9 years and it ended with him cheating so the first couple of years with Michael were really trying. It's hard to trust again and it's hard to get used to a new partner but the decision I made to leave was the best decision I have ever made and as time goes on, it becomes clearer and clearer. Now 4.5 years later and I couldn't be happier. You will learn to let go little bit at a time, it's pat of the fun of it. Just try to enjoy the journey!

[tina_k]

DH wants me to wait till 1 week after AF is due before i POAS. i think im oigng too burst between now and then. Im negotiating for 3 days! His theory is if we test to early we may get a false neg and be disappointed prematurely. i guess it makes sense, because this is my first cycle after DNC so i dont know how long my cycle will be....still killing me though!

[plc1805]

Hey to all
pbstar - vent away hun!! I know I know it's not fair....I'm sorry - am a bit new to the temp thing so can't advise u on anything there yet!
tempus - DO IT! DO IT!! Join FF - go on - JOIN!! (just thought I'd join the peer pressure ) Truly I am a FF-aholic!
Jodsan - honey - sorry about AF!!
nickster - hun! you need to "86" (get rid of) that doc and get someone that will do right by you - a lovely bedside manner should not be under-rated!
Hey to Katiegirl, tina, angelbaby (bday buddy!!), AJC, starrysky, ll80, berecca and anyone else that I am sure to have missed!! Hugs and positive vibes to all!

[STARRYSKY]

Thankyou guys for being so wonderful! I still dont feel 100% about being in the paml threads just yet, I have been posting, cant even bring myself to say hello to the belly buddies group....I think thats just tempting fate.
have another docs appt on wed, so will let you all know whats going on after that.
on a happy note, I think my morning (night, allday!) sickness is finally kicking in and I have been feeling very unwell, and I couldnt be happier!!

I have really been trying not to think about it but my first bubs edd is coming up, on the 5th looks like another emotional doctors visit!
Good luck everyone, sprinkling some more around, hope it helps!
xxx

[Baby Angels]

Huge Hugs Hun......... What your dealing with is what we will all eventually deal with........ the "will it happen again" ..... we all understand and we are all here for you. I was discussing the possibility when I was in the 2ww with DH. I said to him..... I just wouldnt cope if it happened again, his response.... while blunt... was apt..... I wont put it how he did but basically.... the chance is always there and its a chance we take by TTC. I thought about it for a while and decided..... If you had asked me 6 months ago whether I would cope loosing a baby..... or for me two at once..... I would have said a huge NO WAY. But yet here I am 2 months later and I wake up every day and live my life every day. The absolute bottom line is that it is all ONE DAY AT A TIME. Enjoy and love every second you have with your baby. If it was me I would be chatting away to it continually, loving and living every precious moment. I know only to well that it could end tomorrow but I also know...... having a son who is 19 next month..... it can always just continue to which I just continue to love and live each precious moment.

Its all just ONE DAY AT A TIME hun. Dont allow your fear to take over those moments.... those days.:hugs:

I keep missing saying hello to everyone else because I keep thinking about what Starrysky and Nickster are dealing with....... SO.... HUGE HELLO to everyone....

[berecca623]

Hi Ladies, not much to report here but thought I would give some advice / my opinion.

Nickster - if I were you I would go to another doctor. IT seems to me that this one is not tuning in to your needs and fears, and we all know we would be the same. I have a wonderful doctor who has told me next time I am pg she is going to test mt hcg levels regularly just so we can keep an eye on them. Perhaps it is because she has suffered 3 m/c herself that she understands, but I think your doc is REALLY REALLY insensitive and if I were you I would be VERY

As for me, we have started TTC as it is now cycle day 14. So far all tests show no O but last time the OPK said I o'd at CD16 so a couple of days to go yet. Having lots of fun now DH is on board

[STARRYSKY]

hey nickster, I so totally agree with berecca, if you feel like you need to have the extra attention and monitoring, you should get it, (I know I need it! and Im still stressing!) is it easy enough to find another GP there? I hope so, you deserve better than that.
jodson

Tina-k have you had af since D&c? I only ask as I have read that it can take awhile.....for me 5 wks till af showed.

angelbabies and all you lovely ladies, wishing you all the best of luck this cycle, I want you all to come and join me soon!

I had my 2nd bt yesterday, Hcg came back at 4264, so more than doubled, but I am still freaking out, I want some morning sickness so that this feels a bit more real! (I hope i regret that statement...soon...!)

fingers crossed for all, hope you dont mind me dropping back in occasionally, let me know if it is uncomfortable............I will understand.....
xxxx

[AJC]

Starrysky - am just speaking for myself here but you are welcome anytime. I often actually stalk the PAML thread just to reassure myself that there is hope.

Nickster - I think your doctor should be a little more understanding and at least send you for bt (progress to check hcg) and reassurance ultrasound at 6wks.

Tina - I think a week after af due is a bit too long to wait (sorry's Tina's DH!) 3 days is a fair compromise (at the most). Good luck, fingers crossed for you.

ll80 - glad time out has been positive for you. DH and I had time out before our latest ttc attempt and I think we're both better for it. We're both much more relaxed and positive this time.

berecca: am glad it isn't just me who considered taking a month off to avoid a Santa baby. DH thought it was a good idea though because then at least he will get Christmas off for once. It's awful when bd gets a little bland but what our DH's don't seem to understand is that we don't choose when our bodies are fertile - if only?!?!? Am glad you feel better for talking to each other about things.

Am still not sure what my body is doing - am thinking that the elevated temps today and yesterday are just because I'm not feeling that well - hayfever . I guess we'll be able to tell over the next couple of days. Still going to try to keep up the bd over next few days just incase the egg hasn't flown.

A big hello and Hugs to everyone else.

[Jodsan]

Tina, you should be able to test the day you are due and be in with a reasonably good chance of success. Boys just dont get it, they dont have the same instincts and hormones. It's easy for him to be objective about it but you are living with it. Not going to tell you what you should do but my DH would be told its my body and I will test and he has to just be supportive now matter how neurotic I am!

Nickster - I would go to another doctor. This is a very exciting time and it would be good to not have to spend it worrying. You need the peace of mind of knowing HCG is going up.

Af arrived for me, which confirmed what I already knew. Back to day one, this is going to be a very exciting cycle, I just know it!