hi all havent been on for a while so will take me a bit to catch up on what's been happening.

Rozzie - sorry for the loss of your son your heart must be just breaking right now. sending you big hugs. welcome to thread i am so glad for you that you have found your way here as it will give so much support. i took a few months to find my way here but as soon as i did it helped so much. obviously i wish we all didnt have a reason to be here but ykwim. feel free to share as much or as little as you like we are all here to listen and be there for you. as you were talking about reasons my little lani had a knot in her cord. she lived for 16 days but her brain had been damaged from the lack of oxygen so she couldnt survive. so for me i have a reason and yes maybe it does help sometimes to know that it wasnt anything i or anyone could have done but at the end of the day it doesnt make it easier, she still isnt here. so for you i hope that you get the answers you need but dont beat yourself up i am sure that you did all that you could do. take care of yourself and thinking of you.

jen - of course you are welcome here. yes we have all had different journeys to get here but we all feel the same pain and also the love for our children that we lost. i really hope your TTC journey is a short one.

jo - congrats on reaching 9 weeks! glad too that you special day to remember jack turned out so well even with the cold melb weather and the goose (maybe that was jack trying to make you giggle)!

katie - no i didnt end up going to the s&k meeting. i had thought about it but i ended up having a late meeting at work and have been really tired lately so decided to give it a miss. i still might go to another one down the track though. but will definitely be going to the frances perry one in a few weeks. good luck with your weekly scans - although they will be a little tough i hope they also give you the reasurance that you need to keep going each day.

Hammi - hope your visit to the ob goes ok.

Barbara - hope that you are going ok. i will check the other thread to see if you have posted in there.

TM - sorry to hear that AF has arrived - what a tough journey you are having. sending you big hugs.

As for me - all is going well. i will be having my 12 week scan next tuesday so counting down the days for that. the hunger and tiredness has really kicked in this week so i guess that is all a sign that things are still going well in there. havent quite sorted out my work situation yet but its close so will let you know soon. anyway think i will head off to the couch (my second bed!!)

take care all....

sim