Jo and Katie -- always glad to see an update about your babies. I understand that you're paying attention to every movement and everything that seems out of the ordinary. Our midwife told us when we met up with her after the M/C that we can pop up any time we want next time, just show up outside her door and ask to hear the heartbeat. I hope we manage to get her again next time we are pregnant.

Danek - I'm so sorry to hear about your losing Alex. I have also had a long period where I can cry at just about anything. I think the only thing that helped was, in fact, to cry. I cried a lot at work, but after a while that made it so that I could be at work WITHOUT crying. It sort of left my system for just that place and situation. Every time I meet a friend that I haven't seen since before the M/C, I cry, but then next time I see them I'm okay. I cried every time I saw my pregnant friend until I talked to her about how it hurt a lot for me to see her; but then I was able to meet her without crying. It seems, in other words, that admitting and showing my sadness and letting out a good cry is what helps.

Sue - welcome (though it's bittersweet to welcome someone into this group!) -- I was struck by your story; there are a lot of people who seem to find out about losing their baby when they go in for a regular scan and suddenly find that something is wrong. My situation was different, and I have a hard time imagining going in to the hospital with those sort of giddy, hopeful feelings and then leaving with a terrible shock. Please let us know how it goes with the FET.

Hammi and hgirs - I think it sounds like a good idea that you're planning something special around your EDDs. I think I'm going to try to adopt that idea as well. I very much hope that I'm pregnant again by then, because I think I will just collapse and cry if I'm not... I shouldn't get my hopes up too much I suppose.

Rozzie - it sounds like you hae a good doctor now. Focus on that; it's hopeful to have an explanation and a game plan. I'm also concerned that I'm not ovulating, as my temperature isn't going up at all even though that good CM has come and gone! And I'm worried that I'm not ovulating because I'm worrying too much -- a vicious cycle!

Otherwise things are okay with me. I've actually gone almost a week without crying, and have had moments where I actually think about something else. I'm disappointed with myself for how I've been eating, as I've been slowly gaining weight since the M/C and that's not going to make the TTC any easier. But today is a new day, and I've had a healthy breakfast and am planning on going for a walk and trying to relax and thinking egg-popping thoughts.