Everything feels so positive here at the moment. it's really nice to read through everyone's posts and see how well you are all doing. I don't think our lives are ever completely smooth sailing but one thing I love about all you girls is how you all appreciate the little things. I guess experiencing such heartache gives you a different perspective about what's important.

Helen, you have really thrown down the challenge on the garden. My in-laws arrive next friday and they are total green thumbs so i have enlisted their help (don't trust my own gardening abilities) and we are going to get Charlie's Garden up and running. The guy on better homes and gardens assured me on tv the other night that if i plant now I will have yummy tomatoes for summer. I'm not so confident but am going to give it a shot!

Cindee: you freaked me out with your passing out. Don't make us get all bossy on you. I am so white it is ridiculous but picture me right now doing that black woman thing with my hand and saying don't make me come over there and whoop your skinny white ass now girl friend.

Sue: I am so excited about your ticker and think that you are so brave for putting it up. Isn't it amazing how such a little thing can take so much courage. I bet all the other women who get BFP's can't wait to go and put their tickers up and yet for us it is such a big deal. Good on you. And as far as staying here goes, it should be us begging you to stay here with us. We need all you PG girls to stay here and give the rest of us some hope and inspiration. I for one would be devastated if you left so PLEEEEAAAASE stay!!!

Tildy: what good news from your OB appointment. Your ticker is so close to 12 weeks now. I know that 12 weeks is not quite the relief for us as it is normally but it is still a major milestone and will hopefully help you to relax a bit.

Rozzie: you are so close to 12 weeks too. I can only imagine how stressed you are about your scan next week. No-one on here is going to tell you it will all be fine, not because it won't be but because we all know that it is the wrong thing to say... but we are all hoping it will be fine like you wouldn't believe! If that counts for anything then you have nothing to worry about. The whole telling people thing is such a hard decision. Because of my earlier miscarriage I was like that when I was PG with Charlie. Even after my 19wk scan I was still so anxious I just didn't feel like going around telling everyone. The more I showed the more people started to mention it so I didn't so much as announce the PG I just stopped trying to hide it so much. The sad thing is that it was only a week or 2 before we lost Charlie that I finally starting telling people and getting really excited about it. I guess you just have to go with what feels right for you.

Jo: when I read your post about Madison's birth certificate I was so happy. I hope that doesn't sound inappropriate but its just that I had never thought about my next bub's birth certificate and to know that Charlie will be on there just made me feel so happy. Our angel babies are so rarely acknowledged out in the real world (that's what I love about this group, we talk about them no differently to our earth babies) it is just so lovely to have them recognised in such an 'official' way. Thanks so much for sharing that with us.

Katie: 32 weeks WOW. I am so excited watching your ticker. And all those beautiful aches and pains, how awful and yet how wonderful!! I feel like its the countdown on New Years Eve and we're all counting down the weeks with you and then when bubs arrives will all be tooting and cheering and for those of us who aren't PG having a glass or 2 of bubbly!

Well I thought I'd have time to fill you in on my trip but after catching up on what everyone has been doing I'm out of time. I'll be back this afternoon to fill you in.

To anyone I've missed, a big hello and hug!!