Thanks girls. OK here is a quick run down..
Angel1 - lost at 13w due to domestic violence (previous partner), Angel2 - lost at 8w,
Angel3 - lost at 8w (Brigid's twin), Angel4 - lost at 9w (fell pg 5w after B's birth), Angel6 - lost at 6w (one of triplets), Angels7&8 - boys, born sleeping at 15w, un-named (Nov 06).

I am currently having every test known to man run on me, but it looks like there has been some internal scarring from the incident with my first angel (and a previous incident) and also some carry over auto immune problems from some tropical disease I caught as a teenager. It just seems every time I have tests they find more problems, some of which mean gene councelling, some which actually need medical intervention on their own, and but still no definative answers. My doctor calls Brigid my stay behind angel as she has a birthmark in the middle of her back licke a bruise right between her shoulder blades.. he says its where her wings would have been but she stuck... I just cry every time I see it, which is everyday as my DP is now my XP and I have to do all the dressing and bathing.

Sometimes I wonder what I have done wrong and why I don't deserve to have my babies stay with me... other times I wonder what I have done right that I have my little miracle bub.