Hi everyone

blessedatlast - so sorry to hear that you have thrush - it's just doesn't seem fair sometimes does it? I hope you get some good news on the job front soon. How long until your TAFE course starts? I am already dreading the start of uni again this year, and I think I have another month! Hopefully I will be a bit more motivated by then

Dory - your symptoms sound promising - how long until your bt results? I have my fingers and toes crossed for you. Anniversaries must be so hard to deal with, particularly when you have multiples close together. I haven't even begun to think about what we will do for Ryan in March. It seems so far away at the moment but I am sure it will be here soon enough. DH has already got a tattoo on the inside of his left arm to remember Ryan. We also both wear a chain with a charm; Ryan is buried wearing the same charm with a small chain which was taken from DH's longer chain; it helps us to feel connected with him when aren't able to be with him everyday as we should. I hope the upcoming anniversaries are a gentle and peaceful time for you. And I agree with Gigi's comments about not giving time or energy to people who are not good for us in our lives. It definitely is something that I have been more conscious of since we lost Ryan. I hope this woman doesn't cause you any trouble at work. I have found work is one of my refuges where I can just be me for 8 or 9 hours per day; not a mother who has lost her son.

Gigi1 - you have no idea how many times I have gazed longingly at HPT to try to find that second line - wishing that it would appear as if by magic. But it doesn't. I only send myself crazy. I try not to involve DH and let him in on how crazy I really have become, but I think he has a sense of it too. I really hope your fatigue is a good sign How are you coping with your SIL about to have a baby? I think if it was me it would be very hard to be that close to someone who was pg. Take care hun - you are sounding so strong at the moment

Hi to Aries, samcougar and everyone else. Teagz I hope you get some news soon. I hope that sore throat didn't develop into a full blown cold.

AFM - ovulated yesterday I am pretty sure we are in with a good chance this cycle. I am really glad that I bought the fertility monitor last year while we were overseas. It takes all of the guess work out of OPKS and temps. I am so hoping that all of this good living and relaxation will pay off. I have been feeling much more confident and upbeat since the new year. I had a dream last week that we were in Perth and it was next Christmas and we were walking into the local Thai restaurant carrying a baby carrier. I could even the see the dress I was wearing, which I have hanging in the cupboard right now. I have also had a strange feeling that I will have a baby around the time that my DH turns 40 this year, which is the end of October. Of course, all of this could be just wishful thinking by my subconscious but I am really hopeful that it is all true.

We're flying back home tomorrow so I will duck back in again on the weekend.
Take care all.
oxo