Gigi - so sorry sweetie that you are feeling so poorly. What is CMV ?- it sounds like you are just physically miserable. The one good thing about your BB buddies is that you can't be quarrantined from us, no matter what virus you have.

I am sorry that it meant no TCC this cycle, but right now, better to focus on healing yourself.

Chez - Take it easy on yourself at work and with the housework. I was pushing myself too hard, and I realise that only now I have stopped. It's sad in a way that it took a scare for me to wake up to myself. But in reality all of my life, I have pushed myself, whether it be at work or at sports, and I just solider on, so not to do that takes a big mental adjustment. I struggle with it - I feel like I am not contributing or being lazy, but thats when I give myself a shake and say I am doing a very important job right now and that's my priority. So sadly despite my fantasties, I am not a domestic godess at the moment.

I do like your idea of a fresh beginning for chinese new year. year of the tiger - I hope its your year.

AFM? It sounds so stupid to say this aloud, but here goes. I just realised that on this date last year, my contractions started which heralded the most amazing moments and most heartbreaking moments of my life. I had been concentrating so much on Amelia's birth anniversary - 23 Feb - that I had completely forgotten about the events leading up to her birth. If I think about the day its self, which is easy to do on first anniversaries, I was in hospital. It's pretty sobering and I think now I have thought about the entireity ( can't spell this word today) of the events, I am pretty sad. I don't have anything in mind for 23rd Feb, I had a whole bunch of ideas, but nothing has come to fruition. But I am ok with that. It just kind of hit me, and I feel a bit shocked and numb now. Here comes my year of "firsts".