Hi Everyone. Merry Christmas. I survived Christmas - and surprised myself with how well I coped. We spent Christmas with DHs family - and had several events to attend. I was able to talk about Nathaniel and pretty much everyone was lovely to us. We have been very lucky with how supportive people have been. I was around babies a bit, but this does not seem to bother me too much thankfully - as my family always has a baby somewhere.

I did find that by Boxing Day I was exhausted and needed a break. It is hard having to see people for the first time and hear the sympathy - whilst it is appreciated, it is also taxing. So Boxing Day DH and I had a fight and I am sure it was due to me being emotionally exhausted, but it helped. We went out for dinner on our own, which was great and exactly what I needed. We took Nathaniels' memorial box to show DHs mother - she loved it. We left it with her (which is a big deal as it also contains his ashes) and she was thrilled that we were trusting her with it. She wrote a note saying 'Thanks for letting me look after Nathaniel' - which meant so much because it means she sees how important that box is too us, and I have now realised it is important to her as well.

Still waiting for AF. Have stopped bleeding since D&C for a week now, so fingers crossed all is healing.

I hope you all coped with Christmas and that everyone was kind to you.