You're right--it's the randomness of it all that makes infertility so hard to bear. Why does that person who abuses her kids even get to have kids, while the person over here who wants them doesn't...and so on.

One of my cousins who was infertile for years and thought she could never have a baby delivered recently at age 40 as a first time mom. I was thrilled for her.

When I'm calm I can be very philosophical (things happen for a reason, etc.). But the last few days I've been anything but philosophical. I still believe in my head that things happen for a reason, just trying to convince my emotions of it, if you know what I mean...