just popping in to say hi.
Jo- i am also sorry you didn't get the answers you were hoping for. like the others said, answers are a bit of an obsession, but don't really help so very much for the psychological part of our grief. we will all always worry that it will happen again. or that something new will happen. the sleepless thing, i think, is so very common for grief. you are so fresh to it, and sleep is one of those things that gets messed up. i couldn't sleep for the first month after Yeti died because of the nightmares i had, but then for the next two months i slept so much that everyone was worried about that. it was my own way of avoiding everything by just not being. big hugs to you on your quest to find a sensible way around the issue.
Katiegirl- it is heartwarming to hear that you've been able to find a "better" spot for now. hang on to those coping methods, they will continue to help you when you need them. bb has helped me feel not so alone and isolated. so glad you have found an ob you can trust. that will be a great help to you to have that decided already. took me until 10 weeks to find someone, and even now i wonder . . .
lots of luck to everyone.