hallelujah, i got 8 straight hours of sleep last night. she'd only slept for 4-5ish broken hours for the past 5 days with tiny catnaps during the day, so i knew there had to be a breaking point. she went down a 10, up at 5 and had 200mls, and wow she's asleep again... I don't expect it to ever happen again, but for now I'm just so grateful.

sharon- I'll either get her back on the breast or invest in an electric pump. Am weighing the options. I don't think I'll ff, I have such a good supply it almost seems like some terrible waste to not use it. And we're pretty poor and bm is so cheap.. I'm just **** scared to try to put her back on the breast, after all the pain and pain pain pain and bleeding I went through before...

Janine- have given Lila the Hep B shot, and intend to have her MMR's at the very least. I'm a bit concerned about the one that contains thermisol (think thats what its called) as its been linked to autism... What are your reasons for being anti-injection? (website since Im sure it would take ages to write all about it...)

MGM- Lila liked Eurovision, too. Maybe a coincidence, but she was quite settled when it was on. hehe.

As for husbands... I encourage mine to go out and see his friends at least one night a week. Usually its him and a mate drinking beers and playing xbox for a few hours. Just that little bit lets him feel like he's still a person I guess. Not like I get any time like that, but I will soon enough when Lila's a little bigger. Anyway, the point is, that time is important to him and he comes home relaxed and refreshed and wanting to help out. Or maybe its guilt. Either way, he is happy and I'm happy because he is and because he comes home so ready to give me a little break and be a nurturing daddy for a few hours.

And I make a huge effort to dtd every few days even if Im exhausted and don't feel like it. Sex is important to him, not just the physical act, but feeling close to me and being loved in a way only I can provide for him. Its nothing protracted or earth-shattering usually but I think its important for us. It still feels a bit strange down there, almost like I've had a v-transplant or something, but its coming back slowly... Sorry if this is tmi but I think its important.