Thanks for the advice on homeopaths- my friend (who had the reading that i was mentioned in too) is already on to it for me!! Her mum is a homeopath and we are getting some scents together for while i am TTC and then once i get preg too. Thanx- i will let you know what she comes up with for me and maybe compare them with what you would recomend.

Breaksie- i totally aggree that timing played parts in my losses. After my first i had a similar experience with getting a job i love which provides me with a very tight support circle- which i would never have had if i had had my little boy!!
My daughter was due xmas eve- and while i would probably only admit this in here- i beleive i lost her to help show my DH how bad my other losses where to me. In some crazy way- does this make sense to anyone else?? My other losses were alot earlier and to me the pain was the same for all three- but for DH, the impact was the biggest from loosing her. We have also had our struggles as a couple and i know that one day we will have our sh#t together enough for my angels to decide to come back.

I beleive that my friends mother (who has passed) was there waiting for my little boy. My friend was with me when i went in to be induced and they sent us to the wrong waiting room, i waited there for about 10 mins before someone came to get me, and my friend was off getting me a drink- when she saw where i had been she started crying- it was the waiting room she spent hours in while her mum was dying.... dont know why i was sent there in the first place.....

i tend to look at it as not that it "wasn't to be" but that it was just meant to be as it was and there is/are reasons behind everything.
There are so many little things that happened with my last loss that i know things could have gone either way- but they went this way for a reason (i think i was meant to find BB before i tried again too) If i hadn't have lost her i would nevr have found out had Anticardio lipin antibodies and i may have tried for another baby right away and lost again- who knows. I am just always looking for the good that comes from the bad. I have a little philosophy i tell myself.......

Without knowing the worst of the worst- you can never fully appriciate the best of the best.

I hope one day we are all reuntied with our darling angels at some point in our lives... I'm counting on it!!!

StarBright
xoxox