Thanks for the replies everyone Was having a pretty cr@p morning yesterday, after an even more cr@p night. Today I feel less like the world is ending (even though Jazz didn't sleep until 11pm last night, and has slept only about 15 minutes between 8am and now... almost 4 hours awake, what a record!), and I caught some pretty sute smiles on camera so even when she's screaming bl00dy murder, I still have her smiling at me (set one as my desktop photo hehe), so it doesn't seem quite so bad.

And hey, last night I learnt how to cook lots of new things at 3am thanks to Austar LOL! It's easier for me to feed in the lounge room than in the bedroom because Jazz usually likes to chuck a party and stay up, so I get up, change her, get a drink and watch some TV til she settles.

Our anniversary is tomorrow, and my birthday on Monday so HOPEFULLY that means some kind of help from Shel. If not, some serious discussions on Tuesday.

I read a few articles on here, realised I am probably expecting her to be a mind reader. Well, no, to me the things I need are just common sense obvious things, but I guess maybe Shel doesn't realise. We haven't really talked about what would happen if it was the other way around, although we have discussed, sort of, me going to work in 12-18months time and Shel staying home so I guess maybe I can start by talking about that and what she see our roles as being. I mean during her time off she constantly played the playstation/DS/Wii so even though she was home I don't think she fully comprehends how full on it actually is. Especially now Jazz needs heaps more interaction than she did in the first few weeks.

I do get she probably has some things going on with her, not sure where she fits in the parenting thing, being the non-bio mum, but its frustrating that instead of jumping in, shes backing off and getting me to do it instead. Suppose I should bring that up too.


LOL Mel, I know, you're just looking out for me Making sure I don't wreck any of my pots or pans hitting her over the head with it PMSL.

ruf,
And every night, I say to DS, as I kiss him goodnight,... please let mummy get some sleep tonight
well at least i'm not the only one!

pixie, its ok not upset at you guys lol like I said, you're all just wanting Shel to buck up so I don't ruin my cookware hehe.

Aw Bec
Leasha the other night DD was crying from a bad dream at about 3 and i went in to her. I was in bed with her, cuddling and shushing her and she murmured "mama's here, mama's always here". I wouldn't have chosen to do this so alone, but i can't say i regret it too much now either.
Made me cry too Definately all worthwhile