Jen, please don't start doubting yourself!!! I too went through a stage of sleep training my dd and it did work for us for a while, so I know where you're coming from. I remember feeling so out on a limb because I loved all the other attachment parent or gentle parent ideas but I just couldn't handle the lack of sleep. I was headed for pnd.

It's hard when you feel like no one 'gets' your unique circumstance, so that's why I keep posting that we all are just trying our best.

After much reading, thinking, talking and more rest I did a massive 180 and am now a full time co-sleeping all night feeding attachment style parent. But I will never forget the journey to this point. We all struggle on the best we can, but bb is great for opening your eyes to other possibities if you want them. Whatever works! There is no right and wrong way. I would prefer we gave mums more help and support rather than 'fix' the baby, but that's the point I reached for myself.