Kirsten - that is such good news! Well done. Remember to rest. My ob says there is no conclusive evidence to suggest that resting helps, but we both agree it seems logical to rest. If there is a tear, resting might give it the chance to repair, and as you said the emotional rollercoaster you've been on is totally draining. Even just having the opportunity to give yourself some time to recover emotionally, is a good thing.

That's why I have given up work, to rest as much as possible and give this pg every chance I can, both physically and emotionally. Thank god for income protection insurance. My claim hasn't been approved yet, but hopefully it will be, but even if its not, DH and I know we have made the right choice. Although DH said it was totally up to me.

Twinsis - I was feeling sorry for myself yesterday as the nausea just seemed to get on top of me, and I thought, OMG, I can't cope with this. So it's good to hear that you had some success with magnets! I don't care if its a coincidence, if you have some relief, than that's all that matters.

HPL - I am usually pretty up beat and positive too, so it is an adjustment for my own self concept to be on my pity potty. It's hard for me when I've only experienced successive losses, at different stages , to feel really positive. Obviously I feel hope, but its tinged by a fair bit of fear. I know that the idea of control is just an illusion and I can do things to give the pg the best opportunity but there are no guarantees. What will be will be. Sometimes I wish that I had a vodoo date to pass. I remember what that was like, and it's a pretty awesome feeling to have conquered it. Good to hear you have passed your voodoo date! Onwards and upwards for you!

It's inevtiable I feel down at the mo as it is the first of my "first annivesaries" for this year- on this date last year 21 Feb, I started to have the contractions that lead to the most amazing and heartbreaking moment of my life when my daughter Amelia was born on 23 Feb, just too frail to survive. I had been concentrating so much on 23 Feb I forgot until this afternoon of the events leading up to it, starting 21 Feb. Quite sobering really.

Thanks for the positive vibes, though, because they are good to get, and a reminder for me not to be so glum. Honestly, I am thankful and I feel blessed, for both my precious little ones and for this pg, it's just some days, I feel sad and lose my way a bit.