Dory: I'm dreading the 17th April to be honest with you, that is our EDD for our first baby, sadly it's my neices 4th bday as well, so i will be sad for our baby but happy for my neice

I'm not always up beat trust me on that, yesterday was an absolute shocker day, sorry to put a downer now on the thread....

My SIL i love dearly is 10 weeks pg, my Boss is 15 pg, another woman i use to be friends with is the same as me.... Now why am i not happy for these woman? Probably because all of them have never had a problem TTC, i feel so selfish and horrible that my first thought was to break down in tears, which i did.. I should feel happy that they have not had to go through what we all have, but i still felt sad..

I feel much better now of course, but am i allowed to feel frustrated, even just a little? I wish them all the luck and am happy for them now, but still feel like some woman have no problems and don't understand what a blessing and miracle it truly is to fall pg...

Ladies again, i wish everyone happiness i know sometimes we get down and pity ourselves, but we have each other and our familes to keep us level headed!!

til the next time....