Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss ~ September 08 #2

[anneebee3]

Good morning beautiful women.

Angel - Fingers and toes crossed for you today and a huge . I'm also having a big belly laugh for you and sending over all my angels to you. I you are blessed today.

Jen - I know that 7 months isn't that long to be trying but it must feel like forever for you. I had to wait 3 months (2 cycles) before my doc gave us the green light and that felt so long. I kept thinking that I'm just wasting precious baby making & baking time. Apparently you can't rush this process, but it feels like a race to me.

Unfortunately for us we need to get pregnant again so we can determine if my other fallopian tube is blocked. If it is we have to operate again to remove it and then we can commence IVF. Our doc said that if I lost my first angel because of a blocked tube then we will more than likely have the same experience with my other tube. So I'm a little nervous about what might happen and that my body might do this again to my next angel, but like my DH said we don't have a choice unless we want to stop trying for a baby. That's definitely not an option for us. If it does happen again I've got a 5-6 month turn around before we can start IVF (2 months of pregnancy and then at least 3 months recovery). Unfortunately, I think of everything as a time frame now.

This is going to sound horrible, but when the doc told me I had an ectopic pregnancy I rang my family and asked them all to pray that I would m/c our angel. I found out in the morning that I would be operated on that night (I called that operation a compulsory abortion - I'm all for pro choice but abortions would never been an option for me) and at the time a m/c sounded like the better of the two evils. Unfortunately, our prayers weren't answered, but apparently I should be grateful that I survived. I didn't feel very grateful for agreeing to that operation. I know I didn't have a choice and my bubba would have past away anyway, but she was still alive and her little heart was still beating when I went into that operation and that really hurts me to think about.

What a sad sack I am.