Hi all. I was all ready to go to bed and then made the fatal decision of turning on the computer to check my work emails...big mistake and feel all annoyed at people now! So bed will be a bit off I think. My DH would be so angry to hear I was replying to work email at 11:30! Stupid.

Jo - the tradeshow was ok but yes I hate them! I kept reminding myself that this was my last. I still have not told work so I am sure some people just think I have a huge pot belly going on. Only 2 weeks until your 12 week mark - you are moving along nicely! So glad your family made a fuss of you on Mother's Day and especially that they remembered Jack.

Simba - congrats on the excellent scan. It is such a relief to see the heart flickering away. I hope all is going well. Will I see you next week at the support group?

Jen - thanks for your messages of support. It means to much to know you are all behind us! I can't wait to return the favour when it is your turn.

TM - I hope you are doing ok. Like Jo, I to think of you often and I even said a special prayer for you yesterday. I was sitting there thinking about things, and you popped into my head so I asked God to send you a special present.

Barbara - where are you? I hope you and the bubs are doing well. Come back and update us!

Hammi and Rozzie - I hope you are both well. What is news?

Well, not much else from me. The baby is still very very low in my pelvis (which makes external scans hard). My ob has said the baby will move up by week 16 but so far it has not happened. I really want the baby to move up so that the scans can be clearer - this of course will mean my belly will be even bigger than it is now (which I am quite looking forward to) but my secret will be a secret no longer. My DH thinks it is ridiculous that I have only told a handful of people (and I told them prior to 12 weeks) but no one since the 12 week scan. I think sub-consciously I am waiting until I have had the scan at 15 weeks (which is around the time Nathaniel died) to get the go ahead. It is a mental hurdle for me. I quite like not sharing this baby with people. I haven't even told my 3 brothers or my father! Crazy.

Okay I really should try to go to bed. Take care everyone.