Teagz - I am so sorry. I do understand as it took me a few hours before I held Zachary. It was not something I could do immediately either. You poor thing having to go back to hospital again. My heart breaks for you. Sending you big hugs

Beata - So glad you are feeling better. It is great to hear you sound more up beat

Back to my story.

We were sent home and told to get a good nights sleep! How the heck do you do that knowing your baby is going to be born and you won't get to take him home!!!!! Anyway - we came home, packed a few things and went and stayed at my mom's. We got to the hospital at 7.10am. We were admitted to a room in the labour ward and we waited for the OB. She eventually came to see me at 10am!!! I was induced at 10.15am. I went through 17 hours of labour and then they realised that Zachary was stuck and I was fully dilated and I could not give birth naturally.

They told me I would have to have a c-section. I was about to be taken down when they had an emergency ceasarean so I had to wait another hour. By this time the epidural had worn off as they had cut it down so I could feel the contractions. I was in agony. I was taken down to theatre and they had to inject me with pain killers as I could not keep still from the pain. Anyway, they got me stabilised and we got into theatre. Then the assisting surgeon took ill and we had to wait another 45 mins for a replacement surgeon to arrive. I was so cold in there that I was convulsing and they had to put hot blankets on me (although this did no good as they only covered my top half and left my bottom half exposed!

After all this Zachary was born on the Thursday morning at 6.34am. it took from Tuesday to Thursday to have him. I couldn't hold him as I was so tired and I was so afraid I was going to drop him. I only held him after we had gotten back to the room.

The midwife who was on duty was wonderful and took photos for us and dressed him in the outfit we had taken. We also had a very kind lady make a hand and footprint cast for us.

All in all it has been the best and worst experience of my life. The best part was getting to see our beautiful son and seeing him looking so peaceful. And you all know why it was the worst.

I hope my story has helped everyone to know they are not alone and I feel for each and every one of you. xxxxx

AFM Had my first OB appointment today. I have to have a bunch of blood tests and I am having to monitor my blood sugars 7 times a day. My fingers feel like pin cushions I have also been put onto 100mg of Aspirin a day.

He tried to do an ultrasound but we just saw a small spot (I am only 6 weeks tomorrow so he said we might not see much). I have an ultrasound booked for the 9th Feb and another appointment on the 18th Feb with both OB and Diabetic specilaist (now referred to as DiabSpec) Hahaha

Hope you are all keeping well and I look forward to your BFP's!!!!