OH Diana you are a wonderful mother! Don't ever doubt that, you tried everything you could to give Sebastian any hope of surviving. It is that dreadful, dreadful MW that is a terrible professional, it is so hard to know what to do, I did hold Cooper after he was born and after surgery ( I had retained placenta) he lived for about 15min. After that we refused to see him again when the MW's asked and I regret that. You don't have a parallel world to step into for a moment and think it through, it is just all raw emotion at the time. Please try not to be too hard on your self, you ARE Sebastian's very much loved mum, and he knows that wherever he is.
Theresa and Teagz thank you for sharing your stories, I almost feel like 'I can't imagine what youv'e been through', but sadly at the same time I do remember my pain, I have to try and stop crying now, you are all very brave for sharing your journeys to motherhood. I think we all need a .
We are going away for the weekend and I am slightly terrified as I will be about 4 hours away from the hospital, and it really does freak me out. I am not sure how I let DH talk me into it, but I am trying my hardest to be positive!
You ladies are all WONDERFUL mothers, I just hope to God that none of you suffer anymore heartache.