Hello ladies, I did try and jump on last night to say hi while the hubby was away but my internet connections was busted - so here I am again at work trying to do a sneaky post and hoping noone notices my pretty pink screen!

Scarlet hello and welcome, I know it can be a bit daunting posting when everyone seems to know each other so well, I've only just re-joined the forum after a break so look forward to getting to know you better. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this pain as well, I've also heard the reassurances from doctors that 'next time will be fine' and it really doesn't help - I think I must be a bit like you, usually don't have trouble getting pregnant (except at the moment!), they just don't stick. I can't say the fear goes away, all you can do each time is it manage the best you can by being kind to yourself and doing everything you can to ease stress in other areas of your life (massages, chocolate, etc etc!!) They will probably be testing you for all sorts of conditions- I know mine included clotting disorders, inflammatory conditions, thyroid, etc etc - also chromosomal tests are usually done on yourself and hubby, do you know if they have done that? Let us know how you go with it all...

Mel it must be dreadful trying to deal with the ex on top of everything else, I have several friends who are or have been in the same boat but she sounds particularly unpleasant! Hate the thought of the little one having untreated school sores - is there anyway the doctor can call her and talk about it maybe? Agree completely with your comment about people like that having beautiful children while we struggle - seems grossly unfair and I always find it somehow makes the whole thing worse. I used to have friends that keep saying what great parents we would make and how it would be criminal of us not to have kids - of course now that seems terribly ironic as well!

Bailey and Lynn - I'm also hoping for the best this month, hubby gets home tomorrow which is right on CD13, I'm hoping with AF turning up on CD26 the last couple of months that maybe the timing is right??! I will also be applying Bailey's advice of keeping my fingers crossed and legs open!! Provided he's not too tired after flying home from Hawaii!!

On a more serious note - I know this is a bit personal, but I struggle constantly with the hubby when I tell him we really need to make a baby at a particular time, it's like as soon as that's mentioned it's too much pressure and he's too tired or just doesn't want to - it's so frustrating as it's not like he has the hard part of the deal!! I should be fair, it doesn't happen all the time, but when it does I just want to cry because I'm scared that will be the one time we could have conceived..

Hello to everyone else, Mel was Music and Lyrics good? I'm not 100% sure about going to see it so would like to know what you thought...

xxx