Hey Girls,

Tess - I hope someone can give you some info, it drives you crazy trying to do research and coming up empty handed. I was wondering if it would be worth asking your OB or someone about stats?

Lynn - I am so sorry your results are on the go slow, but I think we should all remain extremely positive and I will keep my fingers crossed for you tomorrow You should be really proud of yourself for doing all that you did with the Stillbirth Foundation on the weekend. Those stats are really sad arent they, little babies deserve so much better than that I am glad you managed to have a nice night though.

Spring - LOL at your dogs getting cranky, I can just imagine it - I have heard them give you grief when you are on the phone

Tommysmum - We were extremely fortunate with the ideas people gave us to remember Nicholas. The hand and foot moulds were something recommended to us by Tobin Brothers and it is probably my most treasured possession (apart from his urn). I dont think you should regret the things you dont have, you have the memories in your head and they can never be lost. Memories are much more valuable than material things. I wouldnt trade my memories of Nicholas for anything. As painful as they can be, they are also what makes me remember that this is not a dream and he really was my baby. I hope Emily is feeling better, poor little princess.

Deb - Hope you are feeling well, and bub is going along great. I am up to CD10 now so the time is close. To be honest it has hit me this month that I get so upset about not being UTD and then by the time I know it, it comes around again, so I dont know why I get so upset. Not that it will make any difference, I will still be a mess next time. Although a week after I O I am going to Brisbane to visit a friend and we are going to stay in Caloundra for a couple of nights so I am really just focusing on that now and I cant wait! Hopefully that will keep my eggies distracted so we can trap them and get them UTD without them knowing LOL

Bailey - I remember something that Spring said to me early on in our TTC journey (cause we kind of started at the same time) which was that apparently to successfully get UTD you have a high change of getting it right if you just have sex every couple of days throughout the whole month. And look at her, she is over 20 weeks now! As for the OPKs they really drive me nuts so I am not one to advise. DH and I this month are just DTD every second day and if we do it that way it luckily happens to fall on CD14 whoohoo LOL

Sarah - Nice to see you again, I am so sorry to hear you are having a rough time and I wish you so much luck for TTC this month. Make sure you remember we are all hear for you when you are upset, even if it is just an avenue to get your thoughts written down and out of your head.

Klee - So looking forward to meeting you tomorrow night... bit nervous bout what to expect at the meeting but it will definitely be nice to talk to you face to face.

Well a few of you have commented that I seem to be alot better...

I outed myself in another thread so now feel that I should do so here because I dont want any of you to read it somewhere else first but basically the reason I am doing better is because I am on anti-depressants. I was on them a few weeks ago (not sure if you noticed the very sudden "up" I had) and my OB told me he didnt want me to take them because of TTC so I weaned off and went downhill again. So last Monday spoke to him and said I felt like I was worse than I have ever been and he recommended an anti-depressant that he believes is safe for pregnancy and b/f (my GP gave me the other ones without my OB knowing). So they have started to kick in and I am feeling a little better. Basically, I have been diagnosed with delayed post natal depression which I have let go too far, and its gonna take some work to get on top of. I guess I didnt tell everyone because I didnt want everyone to judge me and I feel like a bit of a failure that I couldnt do it on my own. Everyone else seems to be able to do it on their own and I guess I just didnt want everyone to think less of me. But you all know now and I feel alot better cause now I can talk about it openly. I have to admit I was wondering if they were working this time but considering your comments about me being better I guess they are huh?

Anyway, like I said I consider you all to be my friends and didnt want you to read it in the other thread when I hadnt told you about it.

Love Mel