Just a quickie - I am at work and only have a 3 mins until I am due back but I just wanted to say thank you to you all for your support. My morning has been shocking, I will elaborate later but basically my DH lost it on the way to work this morning at this poor guy who walked out in front of the car and started using the C word at him and everything (he doesnt use that word, in fact he hates it) and he got so angry and the look on his face scared me so much So after a massive argument he admitted that lately he feels that he cant cope and feels like we would all be better off without him. I think it is a good thing that it has happened because I always thought he was doing ok, in a way it is nice to know he is struggling as much as I am but also I feel bad that I have neglected him a little and thought about myself. Anyway, now we can move forward and try to help each other. I think the S&K meeting tonight might help both of us. And we are going to speak to someone while we are there and talk to them about any other counselling they other. I think we both are in severe need of help. As much as this morning needed to happen, it is really hard because I am a temp and I cant just go in and sit at my desk and cry and really thats all I want to do... have a big cry

But thank you again, to come in here and see how much support I have makes it a little easier