Hey BW,

Wherever you decide you belong on BB, i will HUNT YOU DOWN and chat

For food poinsoning to have had an effect it would need to have been something serious like listeria and i find it difficult to reconcile that you got listeria and were just sick a few days, and DH got it and had NO symptoms whatsoever. I know how easy it is to blame yourself. I have lists of things i did as long as my arm that caused my miscarriages, but really hun, it was not you.

HCG starts to drop when a pregnancy is lost, but yours was a missed miscarriage, you probably just had plenty enough hcg to make you sick still. With missed miscarriages the levels stop rising but they often fail to drop as normal, and women often continue to test +ve and have symptoms for weeks, until the loss is discovered through some other means.

You're right to feel positive about the future, your body has shown it can do its thing. The path to a family is so rocky for some, and this has surely been an agonising step for you both, but nonetheless you're still heading in the direction you need to. Your strength and tenacity is inspiring.

Loves

Bec