Hi darling,
I am sooo sorry to hear of your loss. I hope that you are taking good care of yourself and taking time to grieve for your beautiful miracle baby.
I lost twins at 26 weeks on March 25th. Please know that all these feelings that you have are very normal.
In terms of support please know that there is so many beautiful groups/people around to take ypur hand on this journey. One of them is BB, they are a beautiful group of women who give invaluable advise and love. I have joined SIDS and Kids and SANDS, both are very welcoming and supporting. So far I have attended a group meeting at each organisation, it has changed my outook on everything, and I would highly recommmend group therapy. Everyone is different of course, and all in your own time. There is never a 'right' time. I attended my first meeting 4 weeks after the event, but I felt like I was ready to open up to this type of support.
At my first meeting, I admit I was terribly nervous and unsure I was actually ready to do this, but once I started telling my story I was immediately welcomed with open arms.
Group therapy is the most amazing experience as you are in a room with others who know exactly how you feel and the depth of your loss.
Please feel free to PM me as I am in Melbourne and more then happy to help in any way I can.
Take care and sending you hugs