Hi Ladies,

I am not having a very good day today. Its 10 weeks since we found out that Katelyn had passed away. I had a bit of a phobia about wearing the same work clothes that i wore on the day that we found out. I decided i have to over come that they are just clothes so i am wearing them today and it is a bit funny. (By the way they are not maternity i was using a belly belt) Obviously they fit a lot different to when i was wearing them 18 weeks pregnant. There is nothing else to say but i miss her so much it hurts.

I had a much better than normal day yesterday after talking to Gabby because she helped me to know that i am understanding the disorder correctly and am going down the best path possible at this point in time. To Gabby - I cant thank you enough for that reassurance. I know that things may not go my way (everything crossed that they do) but at least i have given everything the best shot.

Meg, Thanks so much for your kind thoughts about Katelyn wanting me to be happy and welcome another soul. I hope that this is true because i am sure that she knows how much we love her and that she would want us to have another baby to give some more love to. Having another baby wont make me love her or miss her any less and i think that she understands this, i feel that the bond that we had when she was alive has continued. It is a hard decision isnt it - what course of treatment should we take. At this point in time (without speaking directly to the OB and Specialist in Pregnancy Complications) that i need to do the most possible so i will be taking the heparin. I figure i have to get through 40 weeks in the best possible frame of mind and once the medication decision has been made then i can feel comfortable that i have done all i can and move on - i am sure there are going to be hundreds of other things to worry me on a daily basis. Let me know how you go with your phone appointment.

Angel - Yeah my arm was pretty sore after the blood tests - but it is all for a very good cause. I guess that is why i am not too concerned with injecting the heparin because if i get a healthly baby then i would cut both my legs off if you know what i mean.

Well wishing you all a happy day today.

Love Sarah