Hey Sarah,

I think it's totally understandable to have a bit of a 'phobia' about certain things when they remind you so distinctly of your loss. IKWYM about the clothes, in fact I can still remember to this day what I was wearing when we found out that our first little angel had died and I haven't worn the top since. Even the smell of certain things has the same effect with me - I used to use the Body Shop Nut Butter on my tummy at that time but haven't been able to bring myself to use it since then. I love the product itself and the smell of it and how it used to make my skin feel, but I just can't bring myself to actually use it.