This thread is great. I recently recieved a long awaited BFP. After 3 ectopic pregs (2 ruptures) and 3 IVF cycles it does not seem real. I cannot find the strength to be positive. Every twinge, every pain convinces me I am about to have a miscarrage or that the wee bubba is somehow growing in a microscopic stub of my removed fillipean tubes.

I feel like I have everything pinned on this pregnancy. The changes to medicare in january mean that we will be able to afford maybe one full cycle and of course my bio-clock is ticking.

This morning I said to my DH "well if i am going to lose this baby then I want it to happen now so that I can have at least 2 more boost cycles before the end of this year. At least that way we would have be able to get some frosties before the changes hit."

DH was totally shocked. He is so happy and upbeat and I am sceptical and concerned.

I hope that once I am in the 2nd trimester I will feel better.

BD, thanks for posting that study and bumping. I feel ALOT better knowing I am not the only one who cant be Mary Bloody Sunshine all the time .