Oh girls (Crumpet and Teni) , it is so hard to face these pregnancies around you/us. And BB is one place i guess you have more power than ever to avoid whatever you care to. Go easy on yourselves. Don't do what you are not comfortable doing just for the sake of others. People that matter will understand. Thinking of you as you reach these dates. It is a stuffed up situation and there is nothing more I can say right now. I was going to say it gets easier to deal with/ manage. But today i feel like screaming so that is from another space entirely. Thinking of you.

Cheryl, hun be careful hun and rest up. I need to take my own advice. I have been so full on with other things and people I have just forgotten my own wedding anniversary. The balance is out in my life right now. Have to work at getting it back. I am feeling good hun, better than before health wise. I am happy and busy, pulled and twisted. Sometimes the balance is almost perfect and then the next minute i feel it building, moving towards out of control again. I guess what i mean is it is never far from the wobbles, like a top spinning. Can be such a fine balance and now more than ever i have learnt that i need to take care of myself, I can't just let myself go for too long. Thinking of you hun and rest up when you can. xoox

Dory, I have to say hun that I have let relationships go a bit. I have not been able to handle them as well as i would have liked to. I still have my wonderful friends but need more time for me these days. Like Cheryl, i don't feel like I have missed out necessarily...most of the time. I do miss what was that will never be again.
I am not sure I can help as i have needed the opposite really and that is to be left alone more and friends have wanted to be there. I have told my friends where I am at, as best i can, who I am atm and hope they understand and give me time. I have found that most people get it. Some people don't and to be honest i don't mind to leave them behind for the moment. I have not had the energy or balls to fight or justify. More than ever I have become someone that backs down. I hope that changes as i don't want to be a victim but i just can't be bothered right now. I would rather leave them behind. God this sounds horrible. Our needs have become so much more important. However every now and then I have found i explode emotionally. God i sound nuts don;t i...really I am not. I love my firends and find the juggle hard these days.
Boy that was a ramble. I think to give her space is a good thing. It sounds like it is taking your energy/thought and time...and that you need for yourself right now. Oh i wish we were good at practicing what we preach. I seem to get into trouble when i need things, support, reassurance and acceptance from someone else. I am trying my hardest to find it within myself...trying!
Oh hun, that was not helpful at all for you.

Angelicdragon, My hopes are still there for you hun. Thinking of you and hope you are feeling a bit better.

CharlieB, Sweety, sorry Af arrived but glad it gives you some regularity. Thinking of you and wishing the very best.

AFM,
Well, DH and I forgot out wedding anniversary yesterday...just remembered now. Oh dear, never mind. We don't get upset about these things. Everyday is a day to celebrate our love together.

Tired now.
SOrry for those i have missed. Got to go and get dinner going.
Love and thanks to all.

HM xoxo