I'm so sorry Crumpet.

I understand how this would have thrown you off though. I had actually started to wind down in our business before we lost the bub, and had even hired a new member to replace myself in the roster. Which now leaves me with no baby and no real purpose at work. Its really tricky having to completely re-write the plan for the next year of my life (or more), when I was so excited about being a mum. So I think feeling lost after the nanny position fell through is completely understandable.

I also have been been seeing a councellor after our loss, it has been SO helpful for me - I really recommend that you look into it.
thanks hun.....

ive emailed the lady who looked after us at the hospital to see where to go from here so hopefully soon ill be seeing someone....

i think the having nothing to look forward to is the hardest.....
itsmy birthday next week and i should have been fat and preg at my birthday but now i have nothing