Tommysmum - So true everything you said in your last post. You just don't realise what people must be going through until you are faced with it yourself. Last night DH and I had a massive cry and a talk....finally. And I said, which even shocked me, that if I had to choose between losing Asha the way we did or not having her at all and being none the wiser, I will still choose to have had her and go through this. not only because of what she has taught me about what is really important in life, but because I just love her so much, and I can't imagine not having her in my life, even as painful as it is. I hope that makes sense. My aunt lost a baby at 17 weeks about 20 year ago, and after we lost Asha, mum said she just didn't realise all thise years ago just what my aunt must have been going through.

Spring - I think that like you, I sort of felt that I had everything perfect. Sometimes I still say to DH "This didnt really happen to us did it?" Woo, hubby home for good soon!

Hi to everyone, hope you are all well.