Hey Girls,

Spring - I have been thinking of you today and hoping you are doing ok. I agree with you about next Sunday, I am absolutely dreading it - DH and I are going to do something nice together but I think it is going to be a really tough day. At least we will all be going through the same feelings on the day, I think it helps just to know you girls are there through it all. Sorry DH had to go back, 33 sleeps will fly by - as is your ticker, everytime I look at it I cant believe it.

Lynn - I am so sorry you have had a tough weekend. Did you have a nice time at the ball or was it really hard? The amount of money you said they raised is amazing! Hopefully they can save someone else in the future from going through what we all are. Big for you and I hope you are ok, if you need a chat let me know.

Bailey - I feel the same, as painful as everything is I would never give him back. I love him with all my heart and and very thankful for having the honour of meeting him and knowing him for all those months. Nothing will change the fact they are our babies and we just have to remember that they are as much ours as they were when we were lucky enough to have them in our tummies

Tommysmum - Spring is right, there is some kind of instant bond that is formed between women who have experienced the heartache we have - whether it be multiple losses or a stillbirth. I also feel so close to the women in this thread and honestly care about each and every one of you. I never imagined I could care about people I have not met in person but I really do, and I think it comes from the mutual understanding we have of each other. I cannot imagine how hard it was for the women generations ago who lost their babies and firstly they were just taken away as if they never existed but then on top of that from what I understand society had the attitude of forget about it and it goes away. I think society still has a long way to go in terms of their compassion and understanding of grieving mothers but compared to those days we are extremely lucky. I can understand why those women still cry for their babies 40 years or so afterwards, I can not imagine not crying for Nicholas, nor do I think I want to stop completely.

Deb - You sound like you have had a busy but nice day, you must be extra tired with your little bean zapping all of your energy - make sure you rest up and bub can have a snooze

Hi to everyone else, hope you have had a nice weekend.

Love Mel