Thank you all for your kind words. It has helped so much to be able to hear from people who understand our pain and grief.

Today we had the D&C. All the nurses etc were lovely. I was in a bit of pain afterwards but emotionally felt surprisingly good. They allow DH to come and sit with me whilst I recovered - probably about 2 or so hours. I have been feeling quite calm for most of the day - I felt like the procedure was helping me move on to the next stage of our grief. This afternoon has been harder - DH has started to feel very upset and angry and I also have been upset. I went to the bathroom before and realised how flat my stomach is - and this got my going. I alreayd feel like my body is reverting to pre-baby shape - all in a matter of hours.

We have asked my mother to come and stay tomorrow (we are in Melb and she in Brisbane). And DH's mother is dropping by today (she lives in country VIC). Up until now we have just wanted to be together but I think the time has come to allow others to help us.

We have decided to have the baby cremated - and will speak with the pathology lab tomorrow to work out what arrangements need to be made. It might not be possible to find out the sex - but we have pretty much decided it is a boy and that he will be called Nathaniel - that name has a lot of meaning for me and it seems perfect. I also plan to buy and star or angel ornament for our Christmas tree. I think we will also make a donation to charity at Christmas in his name - and make this an annual event.

The pain is still raw, and I know there are going to be a lot of good and bad days. Thankfully everyone has been lovely so far and we know we have support if we need it.

Thanks