Thanks Chris. I am making the plans for what to get - like the angel for the tree. I am going to also put together a box of momentos that we can look back on - like the u/s photos and a baby jumpsuit etc. It will be something to look back on if I ever miss him too much.

So is it unusual to have not seen the obstetrician for 2 whole months between 12 and 20 weeks? If I am going to be able to get through our next pregnancy (whenever we are blessed with another chance) then I will need to have complete trust in the Ob.

I know that 2nd time around it won't be enough for me to lie on the bed and have him feel my stomach and take my BP and ask if i feel okay - I will need real reassurance and facts.