Help. I'm in a black hole over c-sections.

[peanutter]

thanks everyone for your posts and encouragement

I've been reading through some of the birth stories here, and have been doing a lot of work with the psych and the counsellor, and have been talking a lot and making some progress ...

and I have 7 more weeks (as long as I don't go into labour early!) so I'm feeling more positive

thanks so much for your encouragement!

[nickers]

im glad your feeling more positive about things, i really feel how your feeling though.
ds1 was born via emergency c/s after 15hrs of labour, failure to dialate to 1cm and he was getting distressed...
i never in my life imagined i'd be having a c/s, really affected me.
when pg with ds2 i did as much research as i could re VBAC and hired a doula, my ob was supportive, but i still failed and end up with another c/s.... i think i found ds2 c/s harder in some ways even though he was FT and it wasnt an emergency i felt i let him and myself down that i failed at a vbac.

so this bub i have accepted (well sort of) from day one i will be having a c/s... i do still ask my ob what if a miracle happens, my waters break, i go to hopsital and already dialating!! but i know this is wishful thinking and not the way its going to happen. So i am hoping and planning that all gone well ds3 will get to be in recovery with me, something i havent experienced yet, i dont do good with the early seperation and did have bf troubles with ds2 so want to try and avoid that early seperation.

i still hate that i am in the numbers of increasing c/s rates, but not everyone gets to have vaginal deliveries.
i think its great you have been having councelling now, im sure it will help you immensly.
i dont think i have given you any good advise here but just wanted to share my experience with you and know your not alone with how you feel.