AFM: well its just not happening for me right now......
the job i got as a nanny has fallen through and now im a wreck all over again....i was looking forward ot having something to do and having a distraction and well it not there now......
am going to try to get into contact with the lady who looked after us after i delivered Gus to see if she can help me organise some councelling or soemthing but im a sobbing mess all over again..... its been 4 months and i keep thinking i should have my ***** together by now but clearly what im doing isnt working so i guess its time to get some help of some sort.
I'm so sorry Crumpet.

I understand how this would have thrown you off though. I had actually started to wind down in our business before we lost the bub, and had even hired a new member to replace myself in the roster. Which now leaves me with no baby and no real purpose at work. Its really tricky having to completely re-write the plan for the next year of my life (or more), when I was so excited about being a mum. So I think feeling lost after the nanny position fell through is completely understandable.

I also have been been seeing a councellor after our loss, it has been SO helpful for me - I really recommend that you look into it.