Oh Beatrix, I'm so sorry to hear about your marriage. They do get challenging at times, eh. I honestly don't know how you do three kids, I think you're superwoman! I have trouble with my two who are widely spaced in age. I barely have time for the eldest anymore, I read her a bedtime story and spend 3 minutes with her in the morning. I'm really upset about it actually and don't know what to do about it, I just can't seem to find the time. Thank God DH is superdad, he's been there for her while I try to sleep or carry on with this baby strapped to me 24/7. I think I'm going to have to change my routine soon, or I'll lose her altogether. DH and she still cosleep, but I'm cosleeping with DS in the spare room so I'm missing all that crucial togetherness we enjoyed. I may have to sacrifice a few hours sleep and go to bed later and fall asleep with her at night. Currently, I go to sleep when DS does, which is about two hours before DD would be asleep, which would then be cutting it really close to DS feed time so I'd basically miss that whole sleep cycle. But I have to I think, or the guilt won't be worth it. I miss my girl. And I know she misses me.