Before having a emergency cs at 34 weeks because DD was bum first and my waters broke I was petrified at the thought of having one. When it did happen it happened so fast that I really didn't have time to worry about it. I was lucky I got to have a quick hold and kiss of DD before she was sent to the special care nursery so I felt I had bonded with her.

I did get angry that they wouldn't let me go to the nursery to see for 12 hours but I eventually got my way and they took me in to see her.

I went into pre labour with strong contractions this week and had a choice of having another cs or trying for a VBAC. I chose not to have the cs as I don't want to be stuck at home not being able to drive to the hospital if the bubs was in the scn again or care for DD. They stopped the labour as my cervix was closed instead but it wasn't out of fear that I said no.