hi, pukeko!

so sorry to hear of your loss. but im also glad that you've joined this forum and shared your story. it takes great courage to voice out our feelings as painful as this. i just popped in today cuz i haven't had the chance to surf around the other forums. i've been in the ttc section all these time.

it's really great to hear though that this is not expected to happen again so hopefully when your comfortable with ttc, it's not as frightening anymore hopefully.

i also lost my first babies last march 23, edd was supposedly oct. 26. my DH and i've been trying for more than a year and went through several tests to find out why we weren't getting preggy. but after changing ob, we were blessed to get preggy via clomid (the wonder drug!!) and of course we were ecstatic. then after 2 weeks from finding out we were positive, we then found out we were having twins!! my DH couldn't love me more after that news and my family was in heaven (it would have been the first twins in our family). but at 9 weeks, as we went to our scheduled u/s, it showed no heartbeat and that our babies stopped growing so our doc advised a d&c. i couldn't stop my tears from streaming down my face in the clinic and as we went out of the hospital. it took me 2 weeks to accept the fate of my babies but i still miss being pregnant and talking to them. there are good and bad days but the thought of getting pregnant and giving my babies a new baby bro or sis helps me get by.

but this site with the wondeful ladies is a blessing. i've been getting great support and i'm sure you would too.

take care and my thoughts are with you.