Hi Pukeko,

I know what you mean. From the moment I first posted here the girls have all made me feel welcome. I have found it such a relief to have an outlet like this.

I think you did incredibly well while visiting your friends. It can be so hard to watch other people with their children knowing what you have lost. Good on you for letting yourself have a moment when things got a bit too much for you. I think it's good to let the pain and emotion out when you need to. I think if we bottle it all up and don't let it out when we need to it will eventually catch up with us somewhere along the track and come back to bite us in the butt! Obviously there will be times when you don't feel comfortable letting it out (I know it's something I prefer to do in private if possible) but I think that as long as you at least acknowledge those feelings you are off to a good start.

I hope you are travelling ok. As everyone has said (and I'm sure you have realised this by now) there will be good days and bad days. I find that for every two steps I take forward I often take one back but as long as I'm still going forward I am happy

Here's hoping that today has been one of the good days for you...