Hi girls

Sorry it took longer than Monday to respond. I didnt get to talk to Ob Nick until today (SOOO hard in an office!!!). Anyway, he really didnt tell me more than I already knew from our first brief chat..and endless hours of looking online. The difference was today he'd made some time to chat and let me ask stuff about chances of it occurring again (the Turner's syndrome), whether this is something DH or I 'carry', when to try again, etc etc. ALl answers for which were things to look at positively.

The great thing that came form this final conversation with him about it, is I hung up at the end of it feeling literally this bizarre sense of closure...or more, I can put this whole experience into a little special spot in my mind and heart without all the hurt and blame, know that the last little one meant the world to me but I really feel I can look forward to trying for the next little soul without all the associated 'moving on' guilt. Hard to explain really but for the first time today, I actually got a twinge of excitment at working out when I'd be O'ing etc (and tying that in with a two week Sydney business trip next few weeks..hee hee hee). I havent felt like that this whole horrendous time. I can literally thank you girls for all this 'new found' perspective by hearing your support and reading your stories....

So, I'm going to make today even more 'historic' while I'm in this contemplative mode and say this will be my last post in the Miscarriage and Loss forum about me (but I will certainly be offering support to those girls joining us in the future). Dont know why...just feels right (today anyway)...

And here's to me seeing you all the in the TTC after Miscarriage gang. \/

Pukeko