Thank you for acknowledging my posts. Sometimes I find it hard to believe anyone would respond to me so openingly and with such feeling. This site is really amazing for that and I do believe now why I'm doing everything I can to stay positive about trying again.
If your D&C was 4 weeks ago yesterday, mine was 4 weeks ago today so we were both truely having our hearts broken at the same time. As for the grieving, sometimes I too thought I'm saying "I'm OK" to myself all too soon...but you soon realise there's still everyday some very raw emotions. Even though I have now joined the TTC group and am trying to bury myself in calculating O'ing days...and of course my love for my husband...there are times like today when I go walking through Target to buy a baby gift for a friend....and I see some cute little girls jumpsuits etc...and I get bloody sad and bloody angry. I guess we've got the girls on this site who have all had those gut wrenching moments and we can all put our hands up and say when it's hurting. As for being terrified, I think that has been the most dominant emotion of the whole experience.
As for your Ob appointment, not sure if you will find out the sex of your baby. If they did testing on the little one, they may have the chromosome results...where sometimes you get the copy of the little genetic 'map'...and it can be quite obvious. I only found out by natural selection. The reason my baby died was Turner's syndrome which only affects girls. Some girls arent so lucky hwre they may have passed the bub..or even with thorough testing, there's no aparent reason for the loss.
Whatever happens at your appointment, I wish you well. You're faced with all the reminders of why you're there. Luckily, my test results were so obviouss, my Ob spared me the trip in and my last appt was a phone call.
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