Dear Pukeko,
Hope that you are feeling a bit better today. I still have good & bad days & expect to for some time yet, so please don't expect too much of yourself. Sometimes just "losing it" can be the best thing, I've often felt better after a good cry. I am not looking forward to what should have been Alex's EDD at all, it is my son's 2nd birthday 2 days before & my BIL the same day as Alex's EDD. But I guess I'll cope somehow (or maybe I won't - & that will be ok). How is your DH going?
Do you have a good OB? I know that for me that is the most important thing for when we TTC again. The OB my GP sent me too with Alex's drama is just fantastic & has reassured us that he will do all he can with our next PG (inlcluding U/S's whenever I want one!).
Anyway know that you are in my thoughts & are sending :hugs: your way