I also feel that I would prefer to have a GA if I had to have a caesar, the thought of being conscious while I feel myself being cut open and people moving my innards around is much, much more scary than the idea of labour for me (although I have experienced neither of these situations).
I do feel that my experience of medicalised conception (and pregnancy loss) has caused me to be more anxious about all aspects of pregnancy and birth. The whole thing perhaps seems more risky than if I had fallen pg easily and not lost a baby. I think that's why I never even questioned whether I would have ob care in my pregnancy. It's only since I started to feel 'safer' with this pregnancy that I gave labour and birth a second thought. I'm really grateful to BB for providing the information that started me thinking about the kind of labour that I would prefer, and I have discovered that I really do want to give birth with as little intervention as possible. That's just my decision, I don't think it should necessarily be anyone else's. I guess there are so many factors that influence the choice of how you would prefer to give birth, lots of them aren't related to LTTTC, some of them are, and all LTTTCers will arrive at their decision via lots of different ways.
ETA - really good points, Sushee. I found that the only way I could stay relatively sane during the early stages of my pregnancy was to keep seeing my fertility counsellor regularly to work through all the issues that I still had, even though I was now pregnant. Those issues certainly don't just disappear when you get pg. Infertility has such a massive impact across so many areas of one's life, DH and I are still dealing with the consequences, and I really feel that my experiences over the last two years have changed me for ever, and lots of those changes are quite negative.
Last edited by Devon; October 20th, 2008 at 06:08 PM.
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