Thanks again, Trish. People speeding down that street is a fairly common thing, but in my state of mind at the time, I thought it was just as possible that I hadn't actually checked properly.

I survived yesterday... I didn't manage to talk to mum at all about things, I was finding it hard to keep it together generally so I eventually curled up on the sofa with my nose in a book to distract myself. My nephew decided to snuggle up with me and spent a lot of time just sitting with me (this kid is usually running around non-stop!) which was really very nice.

I've got to the point where what I need to be able to move on from here is answers from the medical side of things. The first of August seems so far away! Fortunately, I have a friend who I can bother with the questions, and it may just help to have them addressed by someone in the medical side of things, even if I can't get complete answers just yet. My biggest problem is that I often can't find the words to give voice to what I'm thinking/feeling and it just stews inside.

Also feeling a little lost as to where I belong on BB now... the IVF stuff makes me feel a little odd in the M&L area, the loss is still a little too raw to feel completely comfortable going back to the assisted conception areas. No longer pregnant, not actually trying just yet... I guess until I figure out where I belong once more, this thread will just continue to get bigger and bigger... for someone who finds it easier to type my feelings rather than talk about them, I'm very, very glad (not the right word - relieved?) that there is a place like this where I can do just that.

BW